Sometimes you just need to vent...

So, just a little venting post...

So my sister had her baby, and all I've been hearing, is "when are you going to have a baby?"  UGH.  I know it's reasonable to wonder if I'm thinking of kids since I've been married and I'm getting older...and most people have kids by my age...and all my friends have children and all my cousins have children (even the younger than me cousins)...

I'm so sick of the questioning.  I'm sick of people making up excuses for me.  My typical response is "maybe in a year or two"--but they don't just accept that.  They have to find out WHY.  You're focused on your career right now aren't you?  (NO, i am NOT a career woman who doesn't want a family!)  Oh, you're not ready are you?  (YES, we feel ready, and yes we are trying, but I'm not going to tell YOU that!)  You're still enjoying being newlyweds and doing your own thing aren't you?  (NO, we've been married over 2 years and are ready for our next step...my body just won't let us!)  The excuses go on and on and on...I'm starting to think I need to figure out an excuse myself that I can satisfy people with.  It is so frustrating and I feel like crying each time I get this questioning.

I'm trying so hard to be supportive for my sister, and to be there for her, but it's hard with everyone else around.

I just don't know how to feel any more.

Have to get ready for work, I will post about my medical updates another day...

to start with...

well, let me start my blog with a little intro. my name is jen.  i'm 28 years old...my hubby's also 28...and we are tryin to have a baby.  ready to start a family.  we've been ready for a year, and been trying...

in december, i finally went to see a doctor to see why we weren't getting pregnant.  i told her my periods range from 28 days to 50 days with the majority lasting more in the 40s days.  she did some blood tests and an ultrasound (very awkward!) and diagnosed me with pcos.

since then, i have done so much research on the internet, scared myself terribly with all the complications that COULD possibly happen...then i found a website called PCOSupport.org and it has been wonderful.  other women post their experiences and are there to help...it's making me feel much more at ease with the whole pcos thing.

i still feel "broken".  like there is something wrong with me.  i am not normal.  it helps to know that i am not alone.  my husband tries to be supportive, but right now what i really need (and have found on the mentioned website) is other people just like me.

it's going to be an adventure...learning about pcos some more.  it's not going to be easy, and i am feeling really depressed at the moment--to the point of not sleeping or eating well.  i think i will feel better next week after i meet with my doc to discuss a treatment plan...look at my options.

if anyone's reading this, great, but if not, this will be my therapy. :)